le sigh

ok now im tired and depressed again. this is getting annoying. i dont like drugs, but i may go back on meds just so i can get on with my life.
and i always feel the only reason people talk to me or show me any attention is because they feel sorry for me, that they really think i am pathetic and they are doing a good deed by being nice to me.
thats a whole session in therapy right there.
im taking a nap.